POEMS II

Changes

Why must things change?
I liked them the way they were.
Happiness filled my heart,
Where now only sadness lives.
Change can be a good thing,
But not when someone dies.
Why do they have to leave?
Why must they die?
So many questions with no answers.
So now I dread change,
Wishing things could go back to the way they were before.
I want to go back to the sunny days,
No more storms in the sky.
Why must things changes?
They were just fine before.

Cloudless Days

Cloudless days are happy days.
No problems anywhere.
No one in pain.
No fallen tears.
Happiness all around.
Cloudless days let the sun shine in,
And rid the world of problems.
How can their be sadness,
When the sun shines so bright?
How can their be unhappiness,
When all that can be seen is light?
I long for more cloudless days,
When everything is right.
I long for the days where everyone is happy and no one hurts.
I just wish that everyday could be a cloudless day.

Forever

I thought that you would always be here.
I thought that you would never leave.
I thought you would stay forever.
Never leaving me alone.
But forever is not very long.
And I will never see you again.
You left the world way too soon.
Everyone misses you so much.
We cry and cry,
The tears never end.
You left us all alone,
Filled with loneliness,
And questions of why.
Why did you have die?
Why you?
I guess the sand ran out of your hourglass.
Taking you away.
I wish that you had more time.
And that forever was longer.

Cry At Night

I only cry at night now,
While everyone else sleeps.
I only cry at night,
Alone in the dark.
Everyone thinks I’m fine,
Because I only cry at night.
No one hears my pain,
Because I only cry at night.
My pillow is wet with the tears,
That fall at night.
My eyes are red from the tears,
That fall at night.
No one knows my sadness,
Because I cry at night.
No one realizes that I still hurt,
Because I cry at night.
I want to be strong for you,
So I cry at night.
But who will be my strength,
While I cry at night.

Through a child’s eyes

Through a child’s eyes everything is perfect,
No one ever gets hurt.
I wish that I could go back to that time,
And live life through a child’s eyes,
They are so peaceful playing with their toys,
They don’t understand that pain that is happening around them.
I wish that was how it was for me.
I would love to be innocent again,
But I have seen so much hate and violence.
I wish I could be a child again,
And see life through their eyes.
Where the biggest problem is what toy to play with,
Then maybe I would understand what was happening in the world.
But only through the eyes of a child.

Chains

Please leave me alone.
I love you no more.
I no longer want to be chained to you.
You controlled my life, saying whom I could see and what I could do.
I loved you so much,
But I no longer do.
I want to cast these chains away,
So that I can gain command of my life again.
These chains hurt me now,
They cut into my wrists and my heart.
They cause nothing but pain.
So all I can say is goodbye.

How do I...?

How do I live without you?
I have no experience with you not in my life.
You were always there,
no matter what.
Now you are gone.
How do I make it through each day without seeing your smiling face?
You haven't been gone that long,
And already I miss you more than anything.
I know that you are happier now,
You are where you want to be.
How do I survive when my heart is broken?
I miss you so very much.
You are free of any pain,
But I am filled with it.
I want to think about you being free,
But how can I?
I wish you were still here.
So I could say I love you one last time,
but I guess it will have to wait.
Until then I will miss you forever.

Free

I wish that I could be free.
Flying in the sky like the birds.
Then I would have no pain,
or heartache.
Only the wind blowing in my face.
Instead I am stuck on the ground,
Dealing with things I had never imagined would happen.
When did things become so complicated?
When did so many doubts fill my head?
What happened to the days were nothing mattered?
I wish that I could find them again.
Maybe then I would be free.

Forget

I'm afraid that one day you will be nothing but a memory.
Nothing but a faded picture left in my mind.
Every day I think of you,
But some days I think of you a little less.
Does that mean that I am starting to forget?
You are a very unforgettable person,
But still the fear lingers in the back of my mind,
What if a whole day of not thinking of you turns into a week or a month,
What do I do then?
How can I keep your memory alive?
I guess all I can do is wait and see what happens,
Maybe going a little while without thinking of you will not end the world,
Instead maybe it will force me to remember everything all at once,
Without forgetting a thing.
Personally, I think my fear is crazy,
Because you will never die in my memories,
And since you will forever have a place in my heart,
I will never truly be able to forget.

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Everyday I think of you,
Everyday my heart is filled with pain.
I wish that I could remember without hurting.
Sometimes I wish I could forget,
And then maybe the agony would go away.
But I really don't want to forget you,
Just the pain.
If only there was a way to hold on
But leave the horrible pain behind.
Then maybe the sadness would lift,
And slowly fade away,
Leaving nothing but happy memories.
But it still seems that forgetting is the only way to achieve this.
I don't want to forget,
I just want to lessen the heartache.
Will I ever be able to remember without the pain?

All poems written by Jenni

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